I didn’t think we could ever touch like that, so I had kept it in
The alleys and the cars brought me to a place inside myself I hadn’t respected
Your neck still on my face, my hands with memories I can’t replace
Though we only went so far it was miles from here, and now I’m buying tickets for that train
I held my breath into the danger
you were ready to feel
You held me tight and cut me loose
I was ready to please
We did the best we could
in a midnight tryst
We held onto consolations
that we never did kiss
I broke into your car, reliving things that I may never have again
When I closed my eyes I could feel the fabric of your simple dress
I walked behind the store looking for a witness or a trace of us
I returned to the bar but some strangers took our places and I knew I’d gone too far
I lost my nerve and got a job and
you went back to school
You said I had to stop the drama
these feelings couldn’t be true
I said we could’ve done it wrong
maybe we try it again
But I could tell you weren’t a lover, you were just a friend
I worry, could I die from a lack of sleep?
Cuz I can’t close my eyes
Turning side to side while I think of you
without me at night
